Happy Mother's Day!
The kids asked me last night why we have Mother's Day and not "Kids Day." I'm fairly certain I had the same question as a kid. I wonder if Woodrow Wilson's kids asked him that when he made it an official holiday? Did Woodrow Wilson have even have kids? Did Mrs. Wilson have to twist his arm to sign the proclamation?
Surely I can have more productive thoughts on motherhood and Mother's Day than this . . . .
I think that it goes without saying I love being a Mom. I love my kids with all my being and would do anything for them. It is a true gift--and a kind of love I'm convinced I could not have understood until I first held Matthew in my arms (although at that point he was still "Bubba" . . . we struggled with baby naming both times around).
I think I knew I'd always be a mom. Admittedly, younger-Kris didn't always know she'd be a stay-at-home mom. I'm guess I'm still navigating my way in that adventure. I do know it is a true gift and privilege. And when I think about the
hundreds of hours spent in therapies when Matthew was age 2 to 6--I don't know how we'd have done it if I had been working outside the home. I love the countless weekdays the kids and I have been able to spend at Cheekwood, the zoo, museums, making art, playing with friends and taking classes. I guess that's part of why "stay at home mom" never seems to describe what I do. We're never home. And I have the dusty bookshelves and piles of dirty laundry to prove it.
Matthew sometimes asks why he can't be a "SACC kid." SACC is the after-school program at Kenrose. I'm not going to lie, I'm always floored when he asks. Does he not appreciate that his Momma is there when he gets home after school? No there are never fresh-basked chocolate chip cookies waiting for him, but I enjoy that time we have talking about his day (less so doing his homework, but it's part of the package!) and unwinding from school.
Don't get me wrong, I know the kid loves me. Matthew is a mama's boy with a capital "M." Last month we were watching The Phantom Menace. I'm not a big fan of the Star Wars prequels and prefer 4, 5 and 6 (staples of my own childhood), but the kids were dying to see it so we had a movie night. At one point, Anakin says goodbye to his mom and goes off to become a Jedi. I looked over and Matthew had tears running down his face. When I asked him what was wrong he said, "Ani is leaving his Mom. It's so sad." Then he crawled over to where I was sitting and cuddled in to next to me.
Okay. My heart melted. I started crying.
I should mention, Gracie was completely unaffected by this scene. Maybe she just didn't get it. Or maybe my little independent spirit thinks that all kids spread their wings at a young age to become a Jedi.
But then Friday, as we endured a never-ending stay in the doctor's waiting room (5 year well check, no worries), she was watching Dumbo and I saw her face crumple in the scene where Dumbo is separated from his Mom. "That's sad that Dumbo can't be with his Mommy. He needs her."
I've decided the Phantom Menace was just over her head. She gets it.
She doesn't however get that I once had a job besides being a Mom. The other day she noted that Daddy had gone to school longer than I had. "I guess you don't need that much school to be a Mom," she said.
Okay, I have a stinkin' master's degree!
I tried to explain to her my former life and careers. She gave met that sideways glance that told me she was thinking about what I was saying, but either didn't get it or didn't agree.
I let it go.
Let's switch gears for moment . . . .
Most of you reading this knows my Mom. She is an awesome lady and a great mom. We scrap at times and occasionally irritate each other --but when the day is done, I know she's got my back and I have hers. As a kid you don't appreciate all the stuff your Mom does for you. Clean clothes magically appear, empty shampoo bottles are suddenly replaced with full ones, my ideas for Halloween were transformed into a beautiful homemade costumes, delicious meals were on the table every night (minus the broccoli and some yucky dish called Dr. Martin's Mix), dresses were made for graduations and dances, she hauled Amy and I to the library, church, practices and everywhere else we needed to go. And I can't think of a single track meet, basketball game or band concert that my mom was not there for. Not
one. The only thing she couldn't do was solo band competitions. They freaked her out. Yes, I'm serious. I do have a good Dad story related to band competition, but will save it for Father's Day.
When I was working, I remember thinking that my management style was shaped by the bosses I had over the years. You take the good qualities from them, fix the ones that you didn't like and develop a style that is your own. I think motherhood is like that. I've been able to take a lot from my mom. And it warms my heart to know that some of that came from
her mom.
This is probably the longest post I've written in a very long time. I'll wrap it up and say Happy Mother's Day to my awesome Mom, my sweet mother-in-law, Tata, and all my mom friends out there.
A special note those who are missing their Mom's today. As I have posted before, Gracie has all kinds of ideas on death --from Jesus to Martin Luther King to Tammy's dog, Memphis. As we were putting cards in the mail for my mom this week Gracie asked, "Where do you send cards to if your Mom is in heaven?" After explaining that there's no post office in heaven, she declared, "I bet God will have a big Mother's Day party for all the moms up there -- with chocolate cake!"
I'm thinking of Gretel and Grandma enjoying some cake right now. . . . and it makes me smile. My friend Dana's mom is at the party, too. And even though it's a party
for Moms, Linda probably is the one who decked the place out, because she had an awesome sense of style and flair.
Love you, Dana!